There are reasons when I don’t write every day.
Some days are better than others. But the ones that are less fortunate, make me feel like by writing unpleasant unhappy things, i am only putting out negativity in the universe.
On a day like this, i have only a few choices — I can very well pretend to be positive and write about happy things. But do you really think I would do justice to the content? In fact it makes me feel miserable cz it makes me realize the disconnect between my current and the desired state of mind. I would rather just take a nap and cut off from the world for a little bit, than sit and try to pretend. And why the heck would you want me to do that anyway.
Another reason for hiding on such a day is that when I am sad, I feel that my weakness is exposed. I feel more vulnerable and easy to get to. My guard is not that strong and I feel unprotected. Yeah, weird.
Also, why on earth should I acknowledge these bad feelings and make them even more powerful.
So why did I write this post? To keep a promise that I made to you 🙂 Yes, I love you!